This part of the equation is in no way easy at all, completely letting go of what I have been so used to doing, feeling, being etc for many many years. As I shared in part 1: The Cast Of My Cares, Ever since I was little I have really cared a lot about what others thought of me, and when someone didn't like me for some reason or another it really affected me and pretty much hit me like a million ton of bricks, I didn't know any better so to speak- so I just let me feeling and emotions get the best of me and I reacted in less than perfect ways. The bulk of the cast of my cares being displayed for all to see was me being bullied throughout elementary school and middle school. As I wrote before, I have always been very unique in the ways that I dress, and just in my personality in general and I also stand to 4'11 inches and wear glasses. To this day none of that has changed, nothing about my personality that is but there is something that has changed-something that has entered my life, something I chose to accept into my life abut 8 years ago....

Are you ready to know what that something is?

That something, That someone, That life changing, Life altering being is:

JESUS

I was going through so much in my life, I had been through so much and I wasn't always so sure how to deal with it all but in reality I didn't need to "deal" with all of it on my own. I didn't need to beat myself up over the mistakes that I had made and my bad choices- many of which were ultimately leading me to this place called maui and attending church with my mom and sister wich brought me to the beginning of accepting, learning, loving, growing and changing and the deep realization and confirmation that  God created me for MORE, He had a plan for my life, and his son Jesus died on the cross for all of my sins, all of my mistakes and shortcomings- they were already gone when Jesus sacrificed his life for my life, and YOUR life! 

The day I accepted Jesus into my heart and began the journey of faith that I am growing, learning, changing and loving on thru all the junk- I am consistently, everyday shown that I am MORE than worth it, I was created for a purpose and I have gifts and talents and the pain that I experienced in my past is now going to be the answer to the beginning of healing for others, my tests are turning in to testimonies. I am now learning to hand over "The Cast of My Cares" to the one who cares and loves me so much- the one  who created me- I am now "Casting My Cares" upon God! I am learning to let go and let God do his thing! Its Amazing and I wouldn't have it any other way!