The Letting Go

Letting Go and Letting God

This hasnt been easy for me

You see

I am me, and me I like to “GO GO GO”

That “Go” in my spirit 

Has been present since I was small

And it hasn’t left me

Surrender hasn’t looked sweet

In the midst of learning how to let go and give the unnessesary parts of me to God

Struggle has been a constant in this process, but it has had pieces of joy mixed in the pot also.

God has told me many things, he has been speaking to me in the midst of the challenges that this season has been bringing forth. 

In the times where I have felt “useless” while being sick

God has spoken in to those times, and said to me that I am still being used, even while  being sick and sitting silently.

Thank you Nepal, for the experiences you gave me, the situations you put me in, for how much you stretched me and grew me and how you started the process of me learning to surrender! 

The bigger picture of surrender, looks a lot like me continuing in the process of learning how exactly how surrender, and let go of the parts of me that hinder who deep down God has and is molding and growing me to be. Since being in this season of my life and on this journey of the world race, I have I have been learning, growing, and stretching out of my comfort zone on multiple occasions, and within many different situations! I haven’t always understood what has been happening and what exactly God is doing but I am doing my best to be obedient to what he asks me to do so that I can continue to grow, learn and be in his will with all the things he has called and is calling me to do throughout the nations on the world race! Currently, I am learning to surrender and let go of my wants and desires, or basically my control of those wants and desires and let God take full control. This is very, very hard- I feel like I keep going thru a revolving door because I am praying hard for God to guide me in the right direction, and lead me to where he wants me to be after the race but I feel like I have a blindfold on- (so to speak) because I don’t really see anything happening as a result my and other people’s prayers. In this, I am learning to be patient in the waiting time where I may not physically see God moving and doing things in my life. Its another piece of this surrender process, and walking thru it is more than worth it!