H.O.T. (Honest Open and Transparent)

          So as I have been traveling thru this season of my life preparing for the world race I get asked many questions! I love being asked about this journey of following Gods call on my life, I love sharing my story that is still being written.

         Some of the questions that I get asked are:

         *What countries are you going to?

         *What exactly will you be doing while in each country?

         *How much does this trip cost? Do you need to raise all that on your own?

        Another popular one is “Are you excited?” or sometimes its phrased as a statement like “You must be getting excited”

       The answer to that question is not a one word answer, well not for me anyway. I will tell you why; I am not where I would like to be funds wise, gear? haven’t gotten it yet, shots? not yet…Yes I am planning to get those things done…I just haven’t felt exactly excited to do it lately. A big reason is because sometimes I feel like my efforts to share my heart and raise these big dollars goes unnoticed. Unnoticed by people mostly but sometimes by God. Sometimes I ask myself, am I doing the right things? Is there something I am doing wrong? I mostly ask myself these things when the donations aren’t flowing which let me tell you sometimes they flood in like a river and sometimes its like a drought over here. I also ask God questions like, Is this still your will for me? Am I doing all I am supposed to be doing? Am I doing things right?

       So how do I answer the “are you excited?” or “you must me getting excited” I answer truthfully, Yes I am excited, or Yes I am getting excited. However, there are other feelings that I am feeling in the midst of preparing for this epic size God journey!

Here is a poem I wrote to tell you a bit about them:

       Calling and Purpose

                            Feelings flourish as questions are asked

                           sometimes squashed, sometimes masked

                                        cracked open like an egg

                           worry, hesitancy, excitement, happiness, wonder

                              these feelings and more are spilling out of me

                            representing the yolk part, uncooked and raw

                                                 Calling and Purpose

                            Sometimes I need confirmation of my calling

                            Other times, I know in my heart of hearts

                                            so there is no more stalling

                            I often itch to live out my God given purpose

                                         “Island Fever” its a real thing

                            Thru this I have also learned to listen to the king

                                         Listening to his voice and obeying

                             Looking out for who needs help and helping!

                             Mountains and hurdles, Butterflies and Unicorns

                             Life is a mix up, mash up, blender full of experiences

                                             A whirlwind of emotions it is 

                                              One thing I know for sure 

                                           The God of heaven and earth

                                                  He knows all of it!

                                                 Calling and Purpose

        If this touches you in any way, please consider sharing this with family and friends and please prayerfully consider joining me on this journey as I continue to follow God as he leads me to the nations on the world race!

                             Thank you so much and God bless YOU!