FAITH

Its not all rainbows and butterflies

its sometimes discouragement and fears

many days its filled with tears, that keep dripping like a leaky faucet

Faith isn't easy to hold on to but I am not tossing it!

its not a side order for me in this journey called life

its the main dish, I wouldn't feel full without it

Except after that meal, I still need it, I crave it

Even with the conflicts in my heart that I might feel

is this for real, or for fake?

Am I dreaming or am I awake?

sometimes I have to ask myself, is this worth it?

to not toss that 5 letter word

filling in that blank, the unknowns of this season, time and place

Faith, its a mixed bag

NO matter what though

I will choose to carry it,  have it, embody it, live it, and be an example of it!

FAITH!

It was a Tuesday, July 24th 2018 to be exact and I woke up feeling very very 

discouraged. Why? You may ask. well lets just say my fundraising journey for the 

world race hasn't been easy. It hasn't been a pocketful of sunshine- but it has been 

a pocket full of abundant prayers, love, encouragement,  and all that jazz!

Well on that very day, I went about my day pretty normally. I got up got ready,

made myself lunch for the day and headed to work. Even with the feelings of

discouragement, I had a feeling something was about to happen...

in conversation with a coworker- I was explaining to her about my funds and the 

deadlines and how I was given and extension till this coming Friday July

27th. I held it together during that conversation. There is no way I would cry at

work in front of the kids! Well during a conversation with a different coworker- I

broke, I lost it, I couldn't hold back the tears as I was talking about the fundraising

faith walk I have been on. It has not been easy! I have done everything from t-

shirts to yard sales to pop up shops! The funds just haven't been speeding in on a

nascar track! They have been chugging in on Thomas the train and apparently

Thomas is tired! 

Rewind, back to my work day- I work with kids- so I can't be on my phone alllll day

that being said, the day was moving right along and it was lunch time! YAY I was

hungry and wanted to eat! I also wanted to take a peak at my phone!

When I did, I saw that I had like 50 million messages from texts to multiple

messages from my J squad peeps in our group message! There was no way I had

time to read them all, (actually read them) so I scrolled- and saw a text from a

teammate and it said : YOU MET THE DEADLINE?!?!?!

I thought to myself "what the heck??"

Then I told my coworker, I think my squad mates helped me get funded!!!

She was like what? Then a few minutes later she was like, someone tagged you in a

post-you want me to read it 

to you? Or do you want to read it? I was like I will read it, then I was like ok you

can

read it, she read it out loud....

Wow, I was speechless!!!!!! I really didn't know how to react!

I definitely was excited, but also in shock! & it didn't end there! Naptime 

finally came and after I got one one of 2 kids I was sitting between asleep I was 

able to check allllllll the messages that I had. First I went to the group message and

saw the usual 20+ messages, scrolled to the first one and this was it:

Talk about mind blown!!!! I was beyond that!!!

WOW!!!! I was in full shock mode, GOOD shock!!! 

God provided all that I needed and $130 dollars MORE than I needed to reach

the $10,000 goal! & he did it 3 days BEFORE I needed to have it!

A Fundraising MIRACLE!!!!!!!!!

Did my faith fail me???

NO it DIDNT!

What did it do?

It just grew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God is SO SO SO SO SO SO Good and I am launching on the WORLD RACE with my

squad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank YOU! Yes YOU! For all your love, encouragement, prayers, support, donations, wisdom and allllllllll the things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am Thankful, Grateful, BLESSED and still processing this miracle and the fact that I am leaving this island in a week (from today July 25th, 2018)  BUT one thing I

do know, GOD does truly work all things out for the good of those who love him!!!